We’ve all made New Year’s Resolutions. Many of us make one
every year; maybe even the same one over and over! Mine was always to lose
weight. Some years I would succeed for a while, but gain it all back. Some
years I would start, but give up within the first few days. Some years I didn’t
even bother making the resolution in the first place because I knew I wouldn’t
follow through. New Year’s Resolutions became just another thing to fail at.
But you can’t fail if you don’t make one, right?
Last year I had no plans of making a resolution. But the
ladies in my office wanted to start diets on January 1st, so I
decided I would go ahead and join them. I had no belief I would succeed. I was still
in survival mode from my life turning upside down three years before. I’d
already tried a few times to lose the weight I’d gained as my coping mechanism
during that rough patch. I just didn’t believe I could do it, or even deserved
to do it. So making my resolution with the ladies was halfhearted at best.
I somehow made it through the first month successfully. My
daughter’s wedding was coming up at the end of March, so I decided to lose some
more weight for that. I actually started to believe I could do it. And I did. I
lost about 45 pounds and felt much better about myself. It felt good to see family and friends at the
wedding instead of being embarrassed to have them see me. But, when it was all over,
I didn’t feel that same hope inside that it was worth continuing anymore; or
that I was worth it. Circumstances still seemed bigger.
I gained back about 15 pounds, but then in June, decided to
try again. I lost the 15 pounds plus a few more. By the time I set out on a
three week motorcycle trip I was about 55 pounds lighter than I was at the
beginning of the year. I would never have even gotten on the thing if I hadn’t
lost the weight first. Throughout the trip, I ate healthy and lost a few more
pounds. Eating right was becoming a lifestyle change instead of a diet for the
first time in my life. I am still eating that way and feel like I’m choosing to
do it rather than feeling deprived.
I have now officially lost 100 pounds in 2016, all because
of a New Year’s Resolution I didn’t even believe in! I don’t write this to say,
‘Hey, look what I did!’ I write it to say, ‘Hey, look what we can do!!’ Even if we
have tried a million times to lose weight, quit smoking, quit drinking, follow
a budget, write that novel, train for a 5K, or whatever is important to us,
this might just be the right time to try again.
I would much rather everyone forget I ever weighed that much than to admit I lost 100 pounds, but I also want to be an encouragement to others to never give up. If we wait until we feel like it, or until our lives improve, we will never start. Or, if we let discouragement or circumstances have first place on our resolution journey, we will never finish.
I would much rather everyone forget I ever weighed that much than to admit I lost 100 pounds, but I also want to be an encouragement to others to never give up. If we wait until we feel like it, or until our lives improve, we will never start. Or, if we let discouragement or circumstances have first place on our resolution journey, we will never finish.
My circumstances hadn’t changed any on that first day. There
were many times along the way I didn’t feel hopeful about the future, so it was
hard to push through. But my heart was grateful, and I realized staying
overweight and self-medicating with ice cream wouldn’t change anything for the
better, it would just make me feel worse about myself. Time continues to tick
by whether life is where we want it to be or not. Even if my situation wasn't going to change over the next few months, I decided that I could change.
I believe God has a plan and better things are in store for
us if we don’t give up. But if we wait for the good things to happen before we start our resolutions, when
they do finally turn around, we will still be in our bondage. I decided I wanted
to be emotionally and physically ready for whatever happened next in my life.
Like jumping on a Harley and riding across the country!
In October I got offered a job that I really wanted. By then
I was down 80 pounds. I am not sure I would have presented myself as well, or
felt that I could do it, if I hadn’t worked hard to better myself before the opportunity presented itself.
There are still things in life that I worry about. Difficult
circumstances still surround me. Along with losing the weight, I lost my house
this year. But I continue to choose to eat healthy and not let myself fall back
into that hole that will probably always beckon me. I choose to stay grateful
and believe everything happens for a reason.
I have now lost 20 more pounds since starting my new job. I
may or may not lose more. It doesn’t matter. What matters is that I actually
completed my New Year’s Resolution! Whatever comes, good or bad, I know I will
handle it better because perseverance has made me stronger.
Don’t let things, or worries, or other people stop you from
taking that first step. Then the second. Then the third. And if you fall back a
step or two, give yourself a break and start over. Don’t let that self-talk
tell you that you failed again. You never fail as long as you don’t give up!
You can do it!
So, please, keep making resolutions. I am celebrating 100
reasons why it is worth giving it another try! I haven’t decided what my
resolution for next year is yet. Maybe I will train to run that 5K! Or skydive! Or
write novel number 3!!!
Let’s all make our New Year’s Resolution for 2017, close our
eyes, and take that first leap together! As long as there is even a little bit of hope, it can’t be hopeless!!
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